Thursday, July 30, 2015

 I hope that you find your dreams.

I hope that you work hard.

Never stop smiling.
Wednesday, July 29, 2015

 And with every modern love story it comes to an end that wouldn’t leave a dry eye in the house.

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

 and then those long, pretty lashes showed up into my life


all I can say is

ok
Friday, July 24, 2015

 Me : “I’m almost the same size I was before I left!”


Dad : -snicker-

Me : “I’ve lost 42 pounds, I’m the same weight I was before I left.”

Dad : “no you’re not. There’s no way.”

Me : “yes I am.”

Dad : “no you’re not.” -laughs and leaves the room-

ouch.
Tuesday, July 14, 2015

 I’m really surprised that I have new traffic on my reverbnation page.

When I first started singing, I was fourteen and tone deaf. I worked for years on my voice, I took three vocal lessons a week and practically lived at the studio. I wrote, produced and played music almost everyday at the studio until I turned 21.

I hit a wall, I got a ton of negative feedback and I was told that I wasn’t a good singer and wouldn’t ever be. My boyfriend at the time actually told friends not to come to my shows because I was horrible and he didn’t want me to feel embarrassed.

I stopped singing all together when I turned 21. I couldn’t take the negativity and I was unsure who was lying to me, who was telling me the truth. I became so insecure that I pushed it all away. I remember calling my vocal coach and canceling my appointment. I really never called again after that and I literally WORKED at the studio. I just didn’t show up. Ever again. I still haven’t gone back.

Right now I’m locally ranked at #14 and I uploaded my Demo music around a week ago. Needless to say, that’s a hell of a lot better than expected.
Sunday, July 12, 2015

 When I was in High School I tried so hard to be friends with this one girl Freshman year and I guess she got into a fight with her cooler friends so she finally decided that we would be best friends. Two days later we met up to watch the football game and she got back together with her old best friends half way through the game. She literally got up and moved five bleachers ahead of me knowing that I would be sitting there alone. She didn’t even say goodbye when she left.


So I guess what I’m trying to say is people suck.
Wednesday, July 8, 2015

 I turned around at the interview and spoke to you for the first time.

Years later I looked at you and smiled, you smiled back.
Now you’re just a memory who checks in on me.

Life is strange.
Sunday, July 5, 2015

 I will find you and I will crack your jaw.