Thursday, June 25, 2015

 So tonight when I was picking TJ up from work on my way home from work and I was somewhat early so I decided to sit in the parking lot and wait it out. I parked and turned my car off and I was just on tumblr. Just doing my thing.

Then, these two big trucks pull up with big horse trailers on them and the guys get out. Suddenly the one screams at the other one “I’m going to fucking kill you! I’m going to fucking kill you!” Then I heard loud banging and screaming and shit. So I call the cops. Then the screaming sounded far away and the yelling got even louder “I will fuck him up worse! I’m going to fuck him up even worse! I’m going to kill him!” I was so scared. They didn’t know I was there in my car but I was the only other car in the lot. The man kept screaming and then finally the cops came. I don’t know if the one guy shot the other guy or the guy beat up the other guy or WHAT.

Anyway, I was so afraid that I almost started crying.

That happened.
Wednesday, June 24, 2015

 An open letter to Jake Lloyd :


I don’t personally know you, but I see the comments make about you online and I hope that you don’t think the whole world is full of assholes. Honestly, I’ve seen some of the awful things they’ve posted about you and I feel ashamed. I don’t know how you’ve gone your whole life dealing with these comments and jokes surrounding your childhood and a choice your family made for you, thinking they would better your adulthood. It’s no wonder you’ve run into some rough times.

I read on your wiki page that you’ve burned all of your star wars related swag because you felt like the film ruined your life. In a way, after looking at your various social media pages I’ve come to agree with your statement. I scrolled through pages and pages of jokes. It’s absolutely disgusting. These are the first people to turn and judge you, too. It’s amazing how humans are programed to beat down other humans that they don’t even know. Completely eye opening. What’s funny is, if you ever did take your life, they’d be the first people to mourn you on their social media pages.

I just want you to know that I see you for you and not for a role you were forced into as a child. I see a guy who loves video games, who worked hard at school. I’m not the only person who sees it. Buried beneath all of the bullshit comments are comments from real people, who see the real you, who admire you for being you. Hundreds of people flocked to your pages to post jokes, but so did hundreds of fans wishing you well. As hard as it must be to turn a blind eye to the bullshit, you have to. You just have to. For your friends, family and fans. We are here, all of us. We have been all along.

People are going to try to put a label on you, going to try to diagnose you with mental illness, but when in actuality you are a young man who dealt with bullying your entire life. Where most people stop getting bullied in college, you had to keep going through it. You get bullied on your on social media by your own “fans.” Anyone who has gone through the massive amounts of bullying would hit a wall, they’d hit it hard. As it turns out, you have to hit your wall in front of the world, in front of the people who bullied you in the past. You have the media covering it. You have it worse than a typical meltdown would.

Everything is going to be alright.

In my opinion, it would be best to close any and all social media platforms.

Get well soon.
Wednesday, June 17, 2015

 😂 tyga’s song pleaser is pretty nasty.

If anyone ever wrote anything like that about me I would die.
Friday, June 12, 2015

 :( My vape isnt charging anymore, I just got it in like, march.

I paid a boat load and a half for the darn thing, too.
Thursday, June 11, 2015

 I’m so depressed.

I just wanted to make things right.
I haven’t done anything to deserve it.
I work so hard and I bust my butt.
I don’t want to go through all of this.
Wednesday, June 10, 2015

 So last week :

- Old friend stabbed her boyfriend 8 times with a knife or something.
- Was told that bottomless mimosas can only be ordered with a ~brunch item and can not be ordered with a ~lunch item.

I’m not sure what one I’m more upset about, honestly.
Monday, June 8, 2015

 I feel like apple was like

“Hey lolly, who do you wanna see perform at WWDC?”
“Oh you know, Drake and The Weeknd.”
“Oh, okay, yeah, good choice. Lets do that! Have a great day at work lol bye”

But then it actually happened.
Friday, June 5, 2015

 I’m so tired of people not inviting me places. I’m tired of not having a group of friends or anyone who texts me. I feel so alone in the world. I feel like that’s why I’ve had such a bad attitude towards everything lately.

I’m so tired of being the odd man out. I see people going out and having fun and I’m not invited. Like I haven’t had a best friend in at least three years.

People pretend to be my friend when they want someone to talk to or vent to but they don’t give a shit about me. I’m so over it.