Wednesday, July 2, 2014

 He quietly turned to me and whispered, “because I did it.”

I stopped the car, shot my head in his direction and stared. My mouth dropped open, my eyes wide with hatred, palms covered in sweat, beads of silky tears rolled down my cheeks. It felt like an eternity before my arm snapped back and slammed into his face, “you what! You what!”

My voice boomed like thunder and I had no control over it, it vibrated the rear view mirror.

“I’m sorry, I love you! I’m sorry!” He pleaded and cried, “I love you!”

My mind boiled over and I could no longer hear what I was saying. Words flew out like bombs. Words slipped out faster than my eyes could produce tears. Was I even crying anymore?

I parked the car and turned it off. He was sobbing in the passenger seat. His blonde hair drooped over, eyes brilliant red, running his hands over his face. He couldn’t even look at me. Suddenly the little angel faced gentleman was no longer there, nothing but a washed out copy with remnants of once was.

I sat back in the seat and shut my eyes. Who would have known just an hour before this moment we were hand and hand in the supermarket? We were giggling and shopping, preparing for a party we were holding. I could feel my blood starting to boil. I could hear the thug screaming in my face “have some self respect! You have no idea what he’s done! You think it’s just rainbows and greatness! You’re so fucking blind!”

I looked over at the shell of what once was slumped over in my passenger seat and slowly got out of the car. I whispered softly, “wash your face. The guests will be here soon.” The door left my hands and shut with a bang.

I took off my shoes and placed them into my bag, started running and didn’t look back. “You’re so fucking blind! Have some self respect” “…because I did it.” “You don’t even know what’s going on! You think it’s all rainbows!” “The last time they did it was June 5th you little bitch!”

Run faster. Run faster. Faster. “Self respect!” My breathing increased but I felt weightless and if I felt weightless, nothing could hold down my shoulders.
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