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Thursday, June 14, 2007


May 5th 2007

Saturday, May 5, 2007
It's funny how people can just log on here and watch all of my issues. Anyone who reads this, is reading my mind.
This is just normal, everyday life for me. I hate to read other people's blogs and see good things written. It upsets
me because my blog started that way, and then it slowly went down hill. It's hard to re-read this, I know I can't make
it through the first 3 pages. I miss myself, the girl I used to be.

I realized tonight that I don't understand my boyfriend at all. I think he wants something, but he pushes away when I
try to let him have what I think he wants. He leads me to think he wants to do things, and when I let him do it, he pushes
me away. It's very hard for me to understand.

As for Boosh, I won't have to worry about him tomorrow. I know where he's going to be, and it's not Florida. I got lucky
this time. He follows me, but I'm not quite sure where he stands. He watches every move I make, and just for that, my
whole personality changed. I ruined friday.

I don't know what to do, if I'm doing something wrong -- Drew wont tell me. He says he pushed me away because he
wanted to talk to me about friday. I told him around 100 times that it was alright. All I really wanted was a sorry.
I feel like such a bitch when he has to explain himself to me. I don't want him to have to say he's sorry. It breaks my
heart when I have to hear him say things like "I didn't know that bugged you, I'll try to cut down."

Sometimes, I wish I could read his mind. Just to know what he thinks about me.
Sometimes, I wish that Boosh would lay off, but sometimes it makes me feel good. I know that someone really does love me out there, and for that, I push him away. It's not just because of the cheating -- it's about all the lying, and all the crap he thought he could pull on me.

But it's my fault, too. To be quite honest, I wasn't so good. I let him slide everytime he did something bad to me.
I do the same thing with Drew. I get this awful feeling that I'm a bitch for saying they can't do things, but the things
they do make me feel bad, and I want them to stop. But on the other hand, I don't want to tell them they can't.
They have a right to do whatever they want, even if it does hurt me. It's not my place to come into their lives
and tell them that they have to just stop.

Boosh knew I was crying last night, I can just feel it. I know that boy, almost by heart. He was my life.
I wish I knew Drew like that.

It's almost a sin for Boosh to watch me like this. Seeing my "love" make me cry, and then leaving with his friends..
I mean, even Boosh would just hug me. Just give me a really long hug. I would just stand there and squeeze him.
He would force me to say how I felt, he would tell me "Just say it really slow, okay? I'm listening."
I'm not going to lie, Boosh did some amazing things. He could make me just... fall for him. I could be so mad at him,
and he would just hug me, and make a joke.

Boosh and I were walking down a beach once, and it was the first time he had cheated on me. He told me that
even though he was with another girl, he missed me.
I know that's so sappy, and a great excuse for a fake cheating freak, but it made me want to give him one of those
hour-long-hugs. Boosh and I never really kissed. He knew I was too young, and clueless. I think he was afraid that I would grow up, and he wouldn't have his little 5 year old with him anymore. Haha.

But Drew's never given me an Hour-Long-Hug. We've kissed for awhile, but nothing like a hour-long-hug.
An HLH (Hour-Long-Hug) is one of those hugs that you feel like you're falling asleep in the other persons arms,
and one of those hugs that even when your arms go numb, you still cling to that person.

I'm not very sexy, I really try to be sexy. I'd like to be sexy. But I must be doing something wrong.
He says I'm not doing anything wrong, but I know I'm doing something wrong. I just have to figure
out what it is. He might not tell me, but I'm going to find out.

May 4th 2007

Friday, May 4, 2007
I'm sitting here in a room full of people having freaky sex. Well, not really. But I have Nickki, Brandon, Mel, and Dustin over here right now. I'm here, too. But nobody's paying any attention to me. Drew didn't come tonight, and I'm fucking glad he didn't.

You see, I was at downtown seeing Spiderman 3 with everyone, the movie sucked, then we went to TooJays, and then we kinda walked around. Well, durring the movie I looked behind me, and I saw Boosh sitting 2 rows behind me. I layed down on the seat so he wouldn't see me. But it was too late.
Later on I was in Starbucks with my people, and I get this phone call, and he said "I can see you.. can you see me?", and I was just like "What the hell?" and so I walked out and looked around. I seriously couldn't see him.
Then everyone came out of Starbucks, and stood by the fountain with me. Then I looked back, and I saw him on the upper level, I wasn't sure if he saw me, but he was gone when I looked back. So, everyone wanted to walk around, and I seriously didn't want Boosh to find me, but I didn't want to ruin the time. So we kinda stood by sloans, and then I ran upstairs because I thought I saw him. I got up, and I wanted to run after him. By the time I got up to the stairs, he was gone.
Drew followed me up the stairs, but he seriously didn't give a shit about me and my issues. He just kinda walked up there to see what was going on. So, I told him not to worry, and just to go back downstairs, but he didn't.

So I felt all dumb, so we walked back down by everyone. I sat down by a fountain, and Drew sat next to me.
Out of the blue, Andrew P walks up with Stephen, and Stephen talks about how he drove a BMW to downtown.
Drew gets up and demands they go for a ride. Just willing to leave me.
Then Andrew P told Drew to "Pay attention to his Girlfriend".

I got so pissed off, because all day Drew had been hugging every girl he knew, and was telling them that he loved them.
This was ticking me off, because he hardly ever tells me he loves me, and yet he could just throw around words like that.
There's no use being a girlfriend if every girl gets the same treatment.

So I got up and ran away.
Andrew P was making me feel like shit, anyways.

So then Drew didn't even come over to see what was wrong. he was so excited about going in the car, that he left his girlfriend crying outside of downtown. Niceee.

He didn't even say goodbye to me, or anything. I was fucking pissed off.

Then I get this text saying "Are you still here?"
and I said "No. Why do you care?"
and he goes "Well, I went for a ride in the car, and I wanted to see you.."
(something along those lines)

I get totally pissed.
What the hell?
Car ride first, then someone I love comes after?
Here I know she's crying, but I need to take a ride in this car.

I was about to leave his ass. Seriously.
I was fucking ticked off.

Even though he said sorry, it took me four fucking messages to get a "sorry" from him.
Im still really angry.

This time it's not dumb.

Everytime I cry, he leaves me.
No sorry, no nothing.

I'm not being so lovey-dovey anymore.
That seriously broke my heart.
Now I'm scared to be with him, I'm so scared of what he'll make me do.

Just not fair.
I don't ask for much.

But men, when you see your girl crying -- the BMW can fucking wait.

April 22nd 2007

Sunday, April 22, 2007
I guess I should start out by saying that, this post wont make any sence unless you know what happened on Friday. Only one person knows, I think. Not sure. I only told Nickki.
Anyways.
Here it goes :

I seem to only come on here to complain, and I think that this is partually another "angry" post.
I always seem to bitch on and on about Drew, and how he doesn't do everything how I want him to,
and crap like that. It seriously needs to stop.
I bitch at him to call, but when he does call.. it's kind of like talking to a wall. He really doesn't pay
attention.
Last night he was on the phone with Nickki for quite awhile, and I know they had some good convos,
but when I got on the phone, he kinda.. went silent. He asked how I was, and what I did today, stuff like that.
But then he started being quiet, and I guess he was on the computer or something.
So I kinda got upset that he wasnt saying anything, and I was sick of trying to start convos with him, so I gave
Nickki back the phone, and I told her that since he talked to her more, they could keep talking.

He never opens up to me, and It's semi upsetting.
I really want him to talk to me about things =/
If that makes sence.

So then he hung up on me, basicly, and I started to think about how I make him do all these things,
and I never really do anything for him. Like I don't want to call him, because I want to see if he'll actually
call me, and I wont open up to him, because I don't want to scare him.

I sent him around 11 "sorry" texts.

They said :

:/ you just never make convos with me. You don't really open up to me. All of the things I know about you, I learned from Kenzie. I just wish you would talk to me. That's all. I'm really sorry, but you don't talk to me about anything. Kenzie tells me stuff, and that's why I know so much about you. But you've never told me anything. I'm sorry if it sounds Bitchy, or if I keep pushing you to do things. I don't mean to be like that. I guess I'm kinda annoying because I ask you to do things. But I don't call you, and I don't really make an effort to tell you how I feel. So I'm not really being fair, huh?
haha but I keep going on and on in a text message. That's sad. You don't even notice you're getting texts. Lmao. But whatever, I hope you read the texts because I want you to know how I feel. I love you, and Miss you.


But he never responded to them.

I texted him today, and he didn't text back.

I'm really scared that I messed things up on Friday by doing what we did. But it seriously came so fast that I'm sure we had no idea what was going on. I hope I didn't put any pressure on him, and I hope he doesn't look at me in a different way. Because I don't think he understands how much I love him, and sometimes it scares me. I never thought that I could love someone this much, and if I loose him now, I know it'll be really hard on me.
It was hard on me when I lost Boosh, but Boosh is nothing compaired to Drew. I could see myself with Drew for a really long time. I hope it lasts, I really do.
I was just thinking about him today, and I was laughing so hard I almost ran a red light. He makes me smile so much.
I'm pretty sure he'd think it was weird if I told him that. Especially the whole me wanting to be with him forever thing...
I don't think he'd wanna stay with me forever. He's so much better than I am.

But after friday night, I'm just scared he's going to leave me.
I wonder if I made a mistake.
I know on Friday night, I went home and cried in the shower.
I'm really confused right now.
I'm happy about it, yet I'm really scared.
I'm questioning myself.
Am I good enough to keep this boy?
No, No I'm not.

April 14th 2007

Saturday, April 14, 2007
I think I'm really really mad.
You see, we made plans to meet up at the Jupiter Movies at 6pm.
(When I say "we" I mean, Drew, Mel, Andrew P, Kenzie, and some other kids)
When I got there, Drew called me and told me that he was "just going to west plam for a few."
So I sat there, lucky I had mel with me, and we waited for like an hour, and he still didn't show.
So he called me back and asked how I was doing, so I asked him if he was going to eat with us, and he said (something along the lines of) "Uh, no. I'm eating right now."
& That pissed me off.
So I told him to have a good time, like I always do. Then hung up.

So Mel & I went to get pizza. Then Andrew P called me, and asked why I was mad at Drew.
(Let me break it down for a second, WHY DO YOU THINK I WAS MAD?)
So then I hung up on him, after yelling, the whole pizza place was looking at me like I was nuts.
Then we got a cheese pizza.

Then after that, Mel & I walked to the beach and we were having a pretty amazing time.
We made up raps, sang in high pitched voices, thought up different cakes, and even found some pretty shells.
Nickki called, and she said she missed us so much, and we missed her.
I think I missed Nickki the most.
But Mel & I think the same.
And for a few hours, I was actually amazingly happy.
Then they called and said they were on their way, by that time I seriously didn't want them there.

& when they got there, I felt as if it was my fault for ruining their night.
They didn't look like they were having fun, and it was my fault.

So after awhile I really wasn't mad anymore.
(Even though Drew never said he was sorry.)

Then we drove back to the movies, and I said bye to everyone.
Then Drew's mom came, and she got him.

Then I got in the car with Mel & My mom, and my mom started freaking out. She kept yelling about how crappy my friends are, she asked me why I even hung out with them, why I even bothered to date a boy who doesn't care, she told me to take back Boosh, and I said hell fucking no.

We fought all the way home.
It's not fair that I get yelled at for coming on time.
I didn't know they were going to fucking ditch me.

And you know what?
After thinking about everything my mom said (Minus the Boosh part) she was right.
Why do I just let them walk on me?
It's not exactly fair.
They show up when they want to, and ditch when they don't.
Not even telling me they were going to ditch.

My mom was right.

I'm easy.
I'm just like my sister, and I know it.

April 4th 2007

Wednesday, April 4, 2007
Well, Today's my birthday!
Anyways, Yesterday and Last night.. wow.

Yesterday I woke up late, and I pretty much got up and left to pick up Mel & Nikki.

Then we went to Drew's house. We had a hard time finding his house, we found it,but we thought we didn't. So I had to call them to have them stand outside, and then we found out we were at the right house the whole time.

So Drew and Andrew P walked out, and then we all went into his house.
His dog got excited and peed all over the floor, and yeah.

Then we played pool, and listened to Justin Timberlake, and then we
walked outside and sat down and Andrew P spat on Drew's face.

Then Andrew P fell out of a tree, Nikki tried to kiss my boo-boo,
and Mel kept laughing.

Then we went back in the house and played in the playroom thing, and then his mom came in and said she had to drive us all home, and we were like aww. Then Drew talked her into letting us stay when he was doing his flying lesson, and then Mel wanted to go up in the airplane, and so Drew asked if he could take her, and he could. So she went up in the plane, and Me, Nikki, and Andrew P stayed with Drew's mom and we watched "Go! Diego! Go!", and sung some Britney Spears.

Then Drew's mom said Andrew P could go in the airplane, so he went in the plane. Then he came back.

Nicole Biggie Sized my fries.

Then we all went to Duffy's, and I was kinda upset, but that was okay. So we ate and Drew & His mom talked to some realtor dude, and Drew sounded all important, and it was cute.

Then Nikki cooked up a plan about camping in her back yard, and we all were like "Hells yeah". So we got back into Drew's Mom's car, and we drove to get Brandon. Then when we got brandon we drove back to Drew's house. We hung out there for like an hour, and stuff.

Then we all got back in the car, and we drove to Nikki's house, and we all filed into her room.

Then we played Britney spears, and Me, Drew, and Mel sang "Lucky".
And then Nikki's mom said the boys had to be out of her room by 12.
But we really didn't listen, and so the boys stayed.

Then we played Truth or dare, and Nikki & Brandon had to make out.
And they did it.

Then Nikki & Brandon basicly fell in love, and now they're dating.
And then I got dared to take my top off, and I did it.
Yeah.

Then Andrew P stole my bra, and wore it.
They I was suck there with my boobs showing.
Then I tried to grab my bra back from Andrew, and I broke the strap. LMFAO.
So then I put it back on.

Then Drew & I talked, and Nikki & Brandon basicly put coco all over their bodies and licked it off.

Mel was quiet, and Andrew kept talking.

Drew & I were talking.

and Nikki and Brandon were touching each other.

And then Drew fell asleep, 
and I tried to sleep, but everyone kept talking.
So I started talking, and then it was like 4am
and then I fell asleep next to drew.

Then at five, the boys had to leave the room, and Drew wasn't too happy about waking up.

Then in the morning I got on Nikki's bed and slept there for awhile,
because Nikki & Mel were awake.
Then we went on Nikki's computer for awhile, and that was rad.

THEN Andrew had to wake up for his doctor thing, and Brandon came in to talk to everyone, 
and Drew stayed asleep so me & I went out to go watch him sleep.
He's cute when he sleeps. Really.
Then we turned on the TV and watched Maury, and Montel.
But Drew woke up durring Maury.
Then he made Nikki go get his glasses, and he looks so cute with glasses.
But they sit funny on his face, I guess it's his ears or something.
But he looks too cute with glasses. Seriously.
Then we had eggs & bacon.
Then we went back in Nikki's room.
Then I got kicked out of Nikki's room, because they were plotting something.
Then Drew's mom came, and she brought me some baloons!
So nice!
Then I went back in Nikki's room, and then I sat on the bed with Drew,
and we threw my shoes around, and tried to hit Brandon in the nuts.

And then Drew's mom came in and said we had to leave.
SO we all got back into Drew's mom's car, and she told me that there was a gift in there for me,
and so I got it, and it was a $50 gift thing for Jupiter Nails.
That was nice.
...I have no nails.
But that was nice.
Haha.

Then I came home, watched E!, and then took a nap.
When I woke up, my mom had already ate dinner.
So I didn't get anything.

The end!

Louis Vuitton Patchwork Speedy 30



March 20th 2007

Tuesday, March 20, 2007
I got such a bad sunburn yesterday, that I had to go to the doctor. 
I missed my Drew today.

Not much to say.

March 14th 2007

Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Today Drew came back, and he was a grumpy shit bag because he didn't get much sleep, or whatever. So he slept all durring second hour, hardly talked at lunch, and didn't even say goodbye when he left the bus loop.

It really felt like he wasn't at school at all, if you know what I mean. He didn't have that "spark" that he normally has. I hope that he was just tired, and will be back to normal.

Today I recorded my new song "When Your Eyes Say It", it's by Britney Spears, and it's a very slow, but nice song. I think everyone will like it.

We also did a funny remix, and I thought that was fun because my voice sounds so funny in it! We made it sound like Gir from "Invader Zim". It's a really funny thing, so you should listen to it, if you need a good laugh

March 12th 2007

Monday, March 12, 2007
I was watching TV, and as some of you know, I have a "glass house".
(Also known as, lots of screen doors.)
And I looked out, and I saw a few dogs just sitting around, and I thought
"Oh, that's cute. They're on a walk."
One was a mix breed, one was a Pit Bull.
I didn't think much of it.

Then I saw the cute little papillon
(The one who got penny preggers)
walk across the lawn.

Yet again, didn't think anything of it.

Then I heard my dog whine and start barking, so I looked up to see
penny pushing her way out of the screen door. So I just let her go,
and I watched her as she walked up.

All of a sudden the pit bull takes the papillon in it's mouth by the neck,
and the mixed dog grabs it's feet.

I ran outside as fast as I could, screaming, and barking.

The two dogs wouldn't let go of the papillon!
So I kept running after my dumb dog who was walking right up to the TWO DOGS EATING THE PAPILLON!

So my barking finally scared the other two dogs, and they put the little papillon down. So I grabbed my dog, and the papillon and ran towards my house.

I was screaming, and my dad ran out with this HUGE knife. The two dogs ran, and I took the papillon home. It was bleeding pretty bad.

My dog is just fine, but she got a HUGE yelling at for running to her death, and endangering me.


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In less amazing news, I had a day without Drew! He's in Orlando for Culinary. Today was a "free day", and they went to animal kingdom. To be honest, I missed his "Look, I can see my hair!", "Look at my white legs, I need a tan!" and "I'm fat" speaches. I really shouldn't complain about him. He really makes my day!

I hope these next 2 days go by fast!! I miss him so much, that I actually played in gym today!!

March 10th 2007

Saturday, March 10, 2007
Everyone's been ditching me today.

Today was fitness day with chance, and he said he was coming over, and I said to meet me at 11:15, but when 11:15 came around, he didn't come.. so I thought /maybe/ he thought that I said 12:15, so I waited, and then 12:15 came, and he still didn't show up.

So then I thought, oh thats okay, I have plans for tonight. It will all be awesome! Then I went to see what my parents were doing, and they HAD ALREADY LEFT. With out telling me... 

So I went and I worked on my bike for awhile, and then I went for a bike ride. I almost killed myself doing it, too. I haven't been on a bike in awhile, and I kinda pushed myself to the limit... okay, maybe to the point of getting to my house and totally passing out in the driveway.

I was planning on going Bowling with some friends, but they changed dinner plans and stuff, but the place they want to eat is too far from the bowling alley, meaning someone would have to drive me to the bowling alley, and I don't feel safe with that. So I can't go to dinner.
Then my boyfriend said he'd go bowling with me, and so I was all happy, but then he said he couldn't go.

So now I can't go because by the time my friends got to the bowling alley it will be ten, and I have be HOME by ten.
So my day is ruined.

March 1st 2007

Thursday, March 1, 2007
First and Foremost, this post goes out to my bitch Charlotte Church who is pregnant. Way to go! Happy 21st birthday, as well.

Well, today was a pretty shitty day. Yet again, I feel really retarded. Somehow I wonder if I am retarded, and my parents aren't telling me. I actually know a girl who dosen't know that she's retarded, and her parents don't plan on telling her. Dead serious.

Anyways, today my phone busted. My dad says he's not getting me a new one. Basicly, I'm going to use a broken screen phone until Christmas. Fuck. I really want a Blackberry, or Sidekick, but Sidekicks are for T-Moble, and I don't have TM. I have Cingular.

I'm really sick, but I keep going to school because if I stay home I won't be able to go anywhere this weekend. Then some news came out, and we all found out that Drew's going fishing on Saturday at 4am, and might not go anywhere with me on Friday. So Basicly.. I could have stayed home and avoided being called "stupid", and maybe my phone wouldn't be broken. Fuck.

Leaving me for fish?

Well.. Actually, If they had a game show called "Are you smarter than a Fish?".. I'd loose on the first question.

Blah. This sucks. Seriously.

February 27th 2007

Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Nothing really cool has gone on. Mostly FCAT, and that's nothing fun to talk about.
So..
Here's a myspace survey.

Let's see if you can get through it.
If not, you're too scared about your past.

Your name:
Lolly.

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Yes =]

How many girlfriends/ boyfriends have told you they love you?
Two of Two.

Do you like somebody?
No.

Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
Yeah.

Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
One.

Are you happier single or in a relationship?
Relationship, because I feel wanted.

Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it?
I can't say it if I don't mean it.

Have you ever had your heart broken?
Oh tons.

Have you ever broken someone's heart?
I hope I haven't.

If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
Sure.

Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
I hope I am. I really try. I mean, I now Im not the best, but I hardly know how to be one.

Have you dated people who were not good to you?
One.

Have you been in an abusive relationship?
Kind of.

Have you dated someone older than you?
I have.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Not if they make me cry.

Ever been given an engagement ring?
Yes.

Do you want to get married?
I kind of do.

Has anyone ever told you they wanted to marry you?
Yeah.

Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?
It hurts.

Would you believe your ex if she/he said they love you?
Maybe.

Would you date your best male/female friend?
I kinda am right now.

Have any of your ex's called you by a nickname after the break up?
Ehhh Lollykins. ahaha.

If your best friend of the opposite sex went out with someone you knew was wrong for them would you speak on it?
Yes.

Do you regret any of your relationships?
Yes.

February 25th 2007

Sunday, February 25, 2007
On Friday night I went to the Movies with Drew, Brandon, and Kenzie. We went to Mc Donnalds for Dinner.. Then we walked to the beach. I'm going to skip the whole beach story, but it's a lot like the bowling alley story.

Then Saturday I went to the mall with my Mom & Dad, and we ate at CPK. Then I saw a cute new Coach purse, but I didn't buy it. Then Saturday night I went with Drew & Brandon to see "Norbit". That movie was awful! I wouldn't want to see that EVER again.

& Today I really didn't do anything.

February 22nd 2007

Thursday, February 22, 2007
Breaking Free
Liars, Cheaters, Everywhere.
Give them my heart, but they don't care.
Call them ugly, call them stupid, call them fat
And after all that, I've learned how to cope.
Just some extra drama piled onto life, and I just can't take it, anymore.

Well, call me crazy, call me bitter, I don't really care, call me whatever.

Cause I'm breakin' free, leaving this place
I'm Breakin' Free,
Running from the best
You can't stop me,
Cause I'm not listing.
Not looking for attention, just a door that I can run through.

This box, it's held me long enough, and I..
I'm done with the bluffs, who needs friends that lie?
Sure we were close, but it's hard to grasp,
If only I could reach the door, and open the latch..

Cause I'm breakin' free, leaving this place
Breakin' Free,
Running from the best
Cause You can't stop me,
I'm not listing.
Not looking for attention, just a door that I can run through.
Cause, I, I, I, I, I'm breaking, I, I, I, I, I'm breaking..
Cause I'm breakin' free, Breakin' freee.

Don't blame yourself, you're not good enough to kill me,

Cause, I, I, I, I, I'm breaking, I, I, I, I, I'm breaking..
Cause I'm breakin' free, Breakin' freee.

Cause I'm breaking free, leavin' this old place, you'll see
Don't try to stop me,
I'm not gonna listen, Im actually not intrested,
Just show me too the door..
'Cause I'm breaking free.

February 17th 2007

Saturday, February 17, 2007
Baby we used to be close, then one day it broke.
Up and left me like I was nothing.
So used to being hurt, and always cryin'
But one day I got up and just stopped tryin'


So I took all the love letters, wrote down "Please return to sender".
I don't want those anymore.
I'm doing so much better,
so keep your feelings to your self,
for my own god damn health.
Oh baby,
Please
Mr.Post man, take them away.

February 15 2007

Thursday, February 15, 2007
I hate it when people steal my ideas. Do you really have any right to take an idea?
I mean, I've had the same ideas many many times, and when I express them to someone, they take the idea and claim it as theirs!
No right! No right AT ALL.
Backstabber.


& I hurt my elbow today on the bus. It hurts.

February 14th 2007

Wednesday, February 14, 2007
My voice teacher has downgraded me.

I was ment to do a song called "The Prayer", by Charlotte Church.
Well, He didn't really help me learn it, or try to help me with the
Italian, it was these words i didnt know, and I needed him to help.
But he changed the song :(

Now I have to sing a dumb song that everyone else sings. F--k.
Norah Jones?

No. I don't have a LOW voice. I have a HIGH voice. So I'm going
to struggle with the song. Sound like and idiot. And most people
sing the god damn thing anyways.

I never even liked f--king Norah Jones. So now I'm upset. I went
from being the best singer in his teachings, to Norah Jones.
Norah -I have boogers up my nose and can't sing very well- Jones.

Great.

Anyways, back to the Valentines shit. Last night I stayed up untill 11pm talking with Brandon on the phone. It was actually pretty nice. So I filled out all of my Valentines, and made a huge cake, and it fell on the floor... ANYWAYS.

So Andrew P called me, and he told me about what he was going to do for Mackenzie, and he needed some help getting times & stuff for when she's going to be home & crap like that. So I helped him with that.
Then I went to sleep, and then I had to get up at that AWFUL hour!

So I woke up and got ready boring boring boring boringgg.

Okay, so then I got to school and Drew came and gave me a Balloon & a Pretty flower! That was so nice of him. Then I gave him his Cupcakes, and then the bell rang. So in first hour I had a test :(
Then 2nd hour came, and Drew, Brandon, Alexis, & I talked for awhile, then Brandon went to play basket ball.
Then the bell rang for thhaaat.

Then uhm hmm.

Then Coach Andersen told the whole class that he saw me & drew together in the hall, and that we made a cute couple. I wanted to slap his white-man face. Then the whole class "AWWWW"ed. Jesus christ. Have you ever seen PEOPLE before?

Why the fuck does everyone "AWWW"? Grow the fuck up.

Then at lunch I gave Drew his BIG present. It was a Louis Vuitton cream leather thing that goes around your wrist. It wasn't his size, and I felt so dumb. But he took it anyways. Afterschool he told me that people in his 6th hour thought it looked gay.
....great. $150 or so down the toilet.

Then I got to the Bus after school, and it came a little later! Yay! I didn't like it being early because I couldn't be with Drew as much. But yeah. Anyways, so I was on the bus, and the bus driver popped my balloon. :( So that was that!

Then I went home and talked to Kenzie on the phone, and Andrew P on AIM, and Brandon too. But Brandon had to go to some school shit, so no 4 hour convos tonight!

And then I had to go to Voice lessons, and that brings us right back to our first comments on this post.
If you forgot what they were, it involved me shoving a tampon up my nose to get that ugly Norah Jones sound.

Nighty night